Just, breathe

after time >> differences surface >> effort to accept

it'll hit me now and then, how much you actually (and will actually) mean to me
it's scary yet comforting
never did i expect this day would come
you give me so much happiness & joy i don't know where to begin, you're so patient, understanding, and you do the sweetest things
which guy (knowing the girl loves owls) will actually sacrifice months of sleep to cross stitch an owl for a girl in secret? 
or prepare her gift months before hand,
or take her into consideration in almost every single thing?

First of all, Happy New Year everyone!
It's crazy how time flies, 2011 flew by just like that, and before i know it, it's 2012 now.

It's the 3rd day into 2012 and I'm enjoying every bit of the new year so far. 2011 changed my life quite a bit, i've met new people, drifted from some, got closer to some, remained as close to some. A fair bit of ups and downs but i'm feel extremely blessed that the year ended well and it's safe to say that a handful of people that meant the world to me is still by my side till now, and i hope with my all that they'll continue to be. 
Everything happens for a reason, and I must say it has been an eventful year for me, i've learnt many things, grew stronger, and became happier towards the end. There's never an and to learning though, i'm still welcoming changes and obstacles to come in the new year, and most importantly i hope i'll become a better person.
The month of december was amazing, i felt that i've used every ounce of the christmas holidays well and it feels really surreal.
The first half of december - I went to Uss for the first time and had a time of my life & i had my unforgettable 21st bday dinner + hotel suite I spent with my loved ones.
The second half of december - I went to Genting. An enjoyable getaway trip I must say.
I had a lovely countdown to the new years at yunhou's rooftop with a few of my other close friends and I'm so thankful I have all of them in my life. And in a short interval of a day, I had the privilege to experience staying at the Mbs orchid suite for a night and spending almost 2 whole days of my time there. It was amazing. In a span of 2 days I ate 2 international buffets, swam at the infinity pool, got a chance to order room service for supper, and just lazed my ass away in the extremely huge suite. I felt and am still feeling really, really blessed. 
I've never expected my life to have taken on such a drastic change because it has stayed stagnant for quite sometime, and for awhile, I actually didn't mind it being that way. But what was i thinking? If i were to say this change in my life is amazing it would be definitely be an understatement. I thank God for every single thing that has happened and i can't stress enough how contented i am.

I pray that 2012 will be an even better year, and that i'll be happy.
Well, with all the people I have in my life now, I'm guessing it's hard not to be.

you make me 

feel that i'm always thought of no matter where you are and what you do 
feel that i'm so important to you
feel this sense of security because i know you'll always lookout for me
feel that i'm the one you think of before you sleep and once you wake 
feel that this is the happiest you've been in the whole of 2011 because of me
feel that our chemistry is just amazingly strong
and you. make. me. feel. that i'm never just an option, but i'm your priority

it's been awhile since someone made me feel this way,
it has really been awhile.

not only do you prove it in words but i (with many others) can see it from your actions and the very small things you do
from the efforts you make to go ahead with what makes me happy, to the small and big surprises you give me
it's extremely lovely.

it has long been an axiom of mine to never underestimate the little things, because they are are infinitely the most important 

What stands before me scares me.
And yet, i don't know to wish for time to stop or to quickly pass me by.

It didn't occur to me that today's 11/11/11 till I saw the massive amount of tweets on my timeline about it. Thanks to the handful that was eagerly counting down, I didn't miss making my wish at 11:11 today. Never thought I'd be where I am right now, it's a whirlwind of so many things. School has been alright i guess, the people there are more or less of same frequency and I'm glad I've a bunch of closer friends there. I think it's safe to say that prawning last friday was fun.

Time's passing extremely fast these days it scares me. 
It's perplexing.
Besides desiring for more time because it never seems enough, I can't find a reason to why it's a bad thing, because that also means Christmas is coming! I can't wait.

But before that..., I think I might wanna look forward for something else that's arriving in approximately a week's time.
(time to get my hands filled with flour soon!)

(you'll always be you)
i'm scared
but i'll have to keep trying
we'll have to keep trying

but you don't see me

So tell me.